Sepitän kuin puoli miljoonaa muutakin ilmaista "öö, entäs nyt" julkaistua julkaisun julkaisua <=9)c

*pöytä hajoilee altani työtuoleineen* Narks raks, ei... miksi tätä narskunaa nyt sanoisi. Mitä olivatkaan nuo huudahdussanan pronominien, ööh- siis nämä *googlettaa* onomatop..onoma. onomatopoeettinen ilmais.. niinhän tuo juuri kirjoitinkin näin, miauhan se silloin oli kun naapuri syliinsä nappasi. Ei sitä kukaan usko mutta karkuteillä olleet eläimet kaipasi jotakin. Aistivat. Katsoin ehkä elokuvaa niin kovalla että he luuli että täällä on lepakoita. Koira totesi täällä mitään ole, tylsä ihminen, pois. Typerästi vain virnistin omaa pientä hymyä naapurille käytävässä, ovi kiinni ja iltapuuhiin. Kanakeittoa hörrp- hor-hörröpppiimääähän

Siis sulake. Jouduin reitittimen käynnistellä uudestaan. Tiedä sit ylikuumeniko vaiko miksei ollut nettiä kun palasin kotiin yyämässsääää

Väsynyt, ja edelleen suihkua vaille. Käynnistin pelin ja vielä puoli tuntia, saa timantin.

JAa miKäS AfRiKanTI manTTi

Olen niin täynnä ääriään myöden khjullåh. Spämmiä tulee joka päivä aina vain enemmän. Mikä tavoite? Kuka keksi laittaa seuraimia sivuille joilla käy? Kuka civeä keksi? Rakkautta vailla, nimeämätön, kysyvvaa??? Mulla riittää just eikä melkein valuuttaa menoihin sillä aikaa kun elän päivästä toiseen ja odotan lisää tukia, että saan maksettua taas kädestä suuhun sen mitä on, ettei mulla ole säästettävää. 

Epäilyttävää toimintaa. Havaittu. Sinäkö se olitkin kultaseni!!!! :( Niin vakavaa etten sanottua saa

ihminen on kuin viirus.. sillä ei ole omaa elämää, mutta silti sitä käsketään hankkii elämä

P.s. Suostun töihin mihin vaan, paitsi jos siellä kuunnellaan novaa

Sellaaset talkooväet ja moraalinvartijat, järjestyssäännöt, etulinjan paskanjauhannan epäilijät. Että nuoremmakseni voisin kyl.... suosia itseä etummaiseksi, kun aivoja jaettiin, ja pelastuspaateista sovittiin

my plan b is so uh-maze-ungh

Eurovision was rigged but we did ok with a rock song. I'm finishing a swap now. I already had crafted it just needed an address and other stamps of approval. Why do I always have to send to Canada! I remember it was the priciest place to send anything.... i went to the gym today, and mom brought me food. Watched Morbius. Playing with my hamster, I think she approves of my mother. I heard you got some Buffalo shootings? Elon not buying Twitter? What's the news? Here we have Turkey halting our NATO application. Hockey games were on, missed those. I don't think there's a victory parade going on anywhere, so what's to be expected? It's late. I haven't had time to shower after gym! I could get ill. Tomorrow it's my mental health injection day in the morning that's every 4 weeks. On Thursday I'm meeting a Best Buddies intl guide in a cafe for pairing up with a disabled person as one of those good things you do... not charity, inclusive, like endorsement.. no? It's been too long I've LinkedIn's.. oops I was meant to send my cv .. email it to the.. Well, peoples representing capitalism, I dunno, not the boss of me. She has a non-disclosure about anything I like to tell her, though. Isn't that nice.

#pearlsofwisedom #speech 

#lessmature #morepasture  #innit

all is well but it's all good in my head, much new room for depth

 Nitpicking. A pack of cigarettes costs 8,6 to 9,2 to 10,6 euros and anything above, because of the flavor cards I've started hoarding. I don't have a pain treshold about smoking but really... really??? What is this all natural, "organic" tobacco? Something new again, if I may sigh so.

Almost slapped a nicotine patch on it this morning. Reconsider my triggers. Why not just enjoy the day? I woke up and pretty soon had a cigarette, which is always a mistake... I get this heavy feeling all over my body. Surrounded by such poisons in a molecular level, blood and breath, who knows why it feels like that. Heart, lungs, all the way from my tippytoes to the top of my head

I found a bottle from my bag. Two days ago I'd bought a bottle of pepsi max (light cola, you know the stuff you don't want in your body) and I'm enjoying it now. For breakfast I did a "just add human" coffee cupful

I guess I have to translate from Finnish to English in my head first since I don't enjoy thinking in English but. I don't know how that works. I hate Finland. alot. sometimes. So uneventful, blah safe, boring, almost doesn't even exist. When I imagine other countries, I would think they had lakes like us, too. In my dreams of course, the latest dream I had. Tomorrow can be a lot different since it's always new and changing, what you remember.

I remember that years have gone past... and I've been somewhat alone. I've tried to invite friends over. They don't want to visit. I've had one friend stay overnight and that was a long time ago. It's hard to get them to come to you. I mean female friends in a nonhomophobic, cis het way... well I guess you meet your well-wishers randomly, nodding acquaintance

Yeah had to find a translation for that one! So familiar but not well-known.

I used to have a checklist of importance in my life (order of priority) of people in my life. First was my little sister. I had high hopes we'd be closer one day. Second was like, sleeping. (yes the list wasn't a list about people)

But since it's a summer checklist time and I tweeted about having traditions/rituals having to do with the start of summer. I can ignore telling about those with warmth. Lol.

Anyways, I need to p-p- pe -pee: perkele