Dear head, you hurt. I should take a painkiller. It's probably tension headache or from that crippling despression of why I go back to sleep for hours after I wake up in the morning. Tomorrow talk with a psychiatrist nurse. I feel like cancelling it. I don't want to travel anywhere so I don't get a covid.
I have my injection on a full moon again. Apparently it has synced with the moon. Every 4 weeks. I was 31 or was I 32 when I stopped menstruating with the sterilization I had done. Saves a lot of diapers. Although I still get hidradenitis suppurativa flares so there's still a bloody mess from that in my skin folds.
Yesterday went grocery shopping with mum. We bought at least 100 euros worth of food. I am not missing anything. A new toilet rug and a brandless pump bottle for handsoap I also bought. My feet aren't soft, so the rug actually rubs on my dry soles. Tries to come with.
My mood is like a rancor's from star wars when it hasn't bonded with anyone yet. I feel like I'm wearing blinds and I could bond with the first human I see. And besides disneyplus, I have Netflix so I ought to make another pun or a parable or use as symbol in a context something else I've watched on it, too just to be fair. Can't think of an exciting one, I've only watched the first season of Cobra Kai yesterday except for the last episode. Felt a bit rushed if they were going to the championships already, and there's still 3 seasons so I guess the plot's going to slow down somewhat.
But what do I know. Culture pollutes. What is culture? Is it just entertainment. A hobby. Everything the film industry produces, books and every other endless creative means to monetize your creations. As someone whose seen at least 800 movies, I don't give a crap. You could quiz me on movies, whether I remember what I've seen. There was a Harry Potter quiz show, and I would've known which sofa Hermione's parents got obliviated on, even though it's in the movie for like 2 seconds.
The billions of gigabytes of not useful knowledge my brain must have, and I still have to function. Sometimes not even finding any right words. I just need a niche or like, pick a detail of something to expertise on and write about that. Yeah, pick smell or sight or people or ideas. Can't just categorize on one different specifics. Fanfiction is illegal and I don't have followers anywhere to be able to have a voice.
The headache is actually almost gone now that I started with. Helps with coping when you can concentrate on something. Not daydream and worry about stuff without purpose. Yes, random has the most data in it. *takes a drink break and drops the cap on the floor* it's lemon season if you believe. Life makes me a lemonade.
Anyway, it's pretty confusing. I haven't had a sense of control over my life for years. It's like being on the passanger seat and you know you're going somewhere bad and you feel motion sickness but you should write and look things up.
Bits and bobs. Long term memory, short term memory, episodical memory, or
- working memory.
- sensory memory.
- short-term memory.
- long-term memory.