Good soup

 Wait a moment... Let me gather my thoughts. I put on some undereye masks from the fridge. I've only spoke with mum today. Replied with a headpalm emoji to her blended fish soup. Mostly been sleeping. Holding my mouth closed. Trying not to swallow. Taking painmeds. You know it's helping when you can burp, yawn and hiccup normally... I guess I just needed to rest my throat well. I have maybe said thing today. "Joopa joo" isn't much when moving from in front of the tv to the fridge. Also played a bit of Palia on my switch. Making slow progress. Last night I ordered from McDonalds. Got a toy... it was Nintendo related but not Pokemon cards... I was also browsing the my nintendo store and I could get some item with just shipping.

Instead I could use some new soap, perfume, adult toys. So I made an order for a large tentacle and a magic wand from kaalimato. Can pay rent on Friday when getting main amount of my pension. Paid a bit too big mobile bill too. I guess I have like 22eur to live a day? So I can play with around less than 400 euros per month. I will never have a thousand euros sitting in my account. I know some people who have, but their savings haven't time and again gone to bills from solitary wards. Wasn't able to save. If I had the money, they could take me in any moment. It wouldn't do any good. I'm just afraid of the greed of that folk. I'm not sure if my fears are based on current availability of like their services or whether they can just abduct people and medicate them like they did initially to me... I just wonder...

if I'd even exist.