Where to start. Been wearing fleece pyjama pants for far too long. Could use a shower, wash my makeup off, have a change of underwear. Don't know when I got up today, maybe like around 3pm... I did wake up, take meds and go relieve myself but then fell back on my bed. There's too much to do. I need to do some on autopilot. Feels like I'm always online even if I don't take a single picture all day or blog or anything. Always gaming if I don't sleep. And yeah, sleep I do. This time my last thoughts materialized as a sweet dream of kissing and cuddling with my Australian ex-secret lover. He is on my mouse pad, his face printed on it. So that makes sense all in all.
Breakfast was chocolate and lunch a box of marmalade, dinner was tortilla chips and salsa. Maybe an apple in between. Last night I ordered three burgers though. Been spending hours planning meals but... I am wired for short-term indulgence.
Watching a vampire tv series from Anne Rice that finally came to my geolocation. Read even her biography as a teen. "Everywhere I go, people look beautiful to me."
Been moisturizing my hands, put on some clear nail polish, cut my toenails. I have dark hairs growing on each side of my upper lip that I keep noticing too late so I guess thats my routine too, to get rid of that couple of bristles and the soft beard that is visible after a few days to a week–
There's a package of lavender goat cheese from Holland for me to go pick up. Planning on giving it to eat on family Christmas banquet. Independence Day is tomorrow. Got some money to buy myself nice things for it. It's just when and if I get money, feels like I've already used it. I live on borrowed money. I want to forget what I wish I didn't know about money. I don't mean just my poem about money where I wrote money was like a psychopath.
I just got so much things to remember off screen that I have to actually get off screen to think about them and what I used to do next.
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