Whatever I used to do with my free time

Didn’t get ill even though on May Day my friend came over having a bit of a sniffle. Yesterday was Sunday, so I took a rest from this site. Watched some Snape live from tiktok and on tv a Hunger Games movie and played on switch. Snacking on some angry liquorice (I usually don’t have black candy) and potato crisps and milk chocolate. Shouldn’t have. I still got left over a lot.

My bathroom light has been flickering. Might need to replace it. Was a good run. Still haven’t bought the newest Hunger Games book. I listened to it. Can’t even remember how Haymitch won the games.

Last week walked 10km according to Pokemon Go. That’s better than usually staying just under five.

I miss my sex life tho. I don’t have anyone. I want to keep it that way. Men bring only stress and dandruff. I don’t want to get more gray hair, hs lesions on the actual pussy lips from chaffing. I get lots of messages but unwanted ones still. Foreigners 98% or guys in their 20s… not my type. I’m also fearful of being fetishized as a fat person. It’s best to not mention my size. I don’t want to be your ssbw wanking material just because of fat deposits.

What else? Waiting on my new glasses. Someone owes me 31€. I gotta renew this domain. I’m going to the permits station to give my fingerprint on Thursday morning and after that I’ve got appointment with a psych nurse again. Booked them on same day. Nothing else really this week, I’d have going on…

Oh and probably while I was buying snacks last night. Might’ve seen my “first” “boyfriend” who dumped me for an anorexic girl at the rehab home so that he’d get sex. That pig was super fat and bald and had glasses for his tiny eyes. He was always pigging out on food. Taking seconds and thirds. I think I went to swimming pool with him and thats it. He got super red from the face and left probably from the pools.

Anyway. Just lying on my sofa. Listening to sounds of life from around me. It’s not even summer yet. I didn’t get the Tamppi May Day publication in the mail at all.

I read another joke/puns book though. It is animal themed. I should review it soon for NetGalley.

I wear these black Shein oversized or loose shirts or nightgowns that feel too soft. One has moon phases, this has the word witch, one yellow says beach please… etc. I usually don’t wear underwear at home. Or socks. Only if I’m going somewhere. Which I usually am not. I got things to do here, don’t I? Let dust settle. 

I shouldn’t let the demons lie to me that I can just lie down and not exercise at all. It’s easier to sleep all day than to hop on a stationary bike for ten minutes or lift a few dumbbells for a minute. There’s a gym in the building free to use but I never go there. I could just put on indoor shoes and not get them dirty on my way there. Last time I went there was a punching bag, different weights or kettlebells and dumbbells and a fitness bike, a bench. Mirror, music player, sink. It’s all you need really. Sometimes there was a smell like stale sweat. Not always. Just if guys had used it. You aren’t supposed to use the gym after 8pm. But I’ve seen a light there. Someone slip out. I donated a bike there once but it has been dumped already. What would it take me to start exercising? I used to walk a lot to normal weight, now have no fitness whatsoever lol

Opened the door. It was the mail lady. Got the package and a postcard from Postcrossing. Now gone for a smoke on my balcony with the flies and some sunshine, a pleasant wind stirrs. Screentime goes on. Gotta play them games today also. Merge Mayor, Pokemon Go, Elvenar. I login daily or sometimes kill more time.